somestimes it's better to just have the fantasy

have you ever felt you wanted something so bad. that you'd give up everything, just to get a taste of it?
and you work yourself up to that day. where you know it's all going to be yours for the taking,
but when you moment comes, you freeze. and you think it was the worst possible idea you've ever had.
how can that be? why does your brain, your heart, your everything do that to you !?
i don't know what to think or feel right now. i am confused and frustrated.
and i want to run away. and i want you to run away with me. but i don't know how that would go.
the more time i have to myself, to think and ponder the worse the ideas get.
ohhhhhhh the paranoia.

so i ask myself, one last time. is it better to just have the fantasy, or is it better to make your dreams a reality...