first day alone

this is my first day alone here in the concrete jungle. found a bar called sneaky dees, and figured out there was a show there last night... but i had alot of shit to tend to at 6am. blurrrrrrrr
starting at the school of makeup art ; special fx makeup, tomorrow. a little nervous, and excited, and too sober.
i hate feeling pressure, and being worried, makes me wanna vomit.! fukit. i'm here to get something going in my life for once, start the ball rollling.
i want it to be october already. sloane & rhyen are coming for halloween, and ethan's moving up here. it's gonna be an awesome time. i've got a few friends here, but i'm not doing too good at this public transit thing. i can get to school & back, made it to the beer store and walmart a few times already, but that's about it.
i don't know how i feel about this place yet, i've only been here a few days. it freaks me out a bit, all the people and all the moving. so fucking fast paced, walmart gives me major anxiety. that's strange though, because i've been at shows & concerts with hundreds even thousands of people and i'm completely fine. maybe it's the music and the crowd that get my energy going so hard that i can loose it and jump around, or just walk and feel awesome. who knows.
i'm off to find a park to read dharma punx in.

cheers too beers & many more years.

BUFFALO !